Machi ☆ Kisetsu

BUH

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 11:20:33 GMT

Arw man.. I wrote a crazy entry yesterday and OBVIOUSLY It was deleted before i could say sheep

so XD wtf?

I dunno what I'm supposed to say now =o= I'll just blabla away like I did yesterday
I'm just so major bored i can't get a LETTER about Aachen and it's stupid chathedral outta my fingers anymoaaar

TO HELL WITH YEHW PALA D'ORO > GO FUK YOR MANDORLA!

buttem.... my mobilephone is dying, I actually didn't get the messages I was supposed to get
like several times
so now I'm all like .... hmmmmmm, friendles

Imma takin new one PRONTO> look on webs and get a pwetty one 8D! yes> and pretty only, I don need fuctions as camera and mp3 ^3^ I already have my win cam for that
as long as it displays image files rant rant rant blabla

OH! and I'm sooooo into SanX again =o= I refound kugopan <3 he's so sweeeeet I WANT TO EAT HIM
milk milk!

*sigh*
yes, I'm gonna do this before i start my homework again (lookin for new phone I mean)...while actually just resting in my case
i'm a BAD student
I want to succeed without doing any affort

and I am going to do so and get this year Done with .. friends go first
and tv
and pc
and games
and comics
THEY ALL ARE MOAR IMPO GDDMND

+ I can't wait for my finan to arrive cuss there are so many cute things I wanna buy on the webs :o
I really want new clothes and refresh the bizz you know?

ha... anygays> I was so bored (nooooh(...) bored? ME?! noooooooooooh OAO') last night I started doing make-up again
OAO didn't do that in AGES so it was bout time I got some practizzz
yes 8D did my hair also> WAXXO
butt it looks like trash on the pictures ... or at least that's what i think ;D
I did photoshop to ... as you can see probsebla
but I didn't work it perfect ;D bored and lazy (lazy is my L word bbebeee)

I should add some more light to this one õ_o

MOBILEPHONE SEARCH NOW
~ everyone I know is gettin a new one anyway :o I can't be left behind with this prepaid fukker OAO'
samsung <3 plz have pretty ones 8D!?

and maddy if you still wanna meet plz tell me where and when and stuff ;o;?
I don trust my mobile and my msn ~so yea XD than this way huh ;D
or maybe we can go next week... in weekend or so?
a whatever XD TALKU ME ON MSN <3 my msn fails less that way XD

stfu you retard of a fakescreen

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 18:22:59 GMT

HOW am I supposed to get myself feeling better, if msn doesn't allow me to talk?

I know I've been over this for a 1000 of times, but it seems like it's just gettin worst and on moments where i need to talk to people the most
it fuckin doesn't work and it makes me even feel worst than i feel already

and noooo, i'm not trying to spit my probs out on the world and friends and family
I just want have a nice convo to get my mind off of things which i can't control at this moment

I'm stressing so bad it's so major fucked up I can do nothing but cry and trow things arround

but hey, I'm on 24 scetches people.... and I've got one assignment done
my rainbow folly is finnaly standing
and I got a half globe for my starwatchplateau

if only it was enough

p.s. it's like 10 minutes now and msn still logging in/ou/in/out
if anyone knows what to do about wireless internet and this "the conncetion with windows live messenger is broken and the connection will be recovered within ##seconds" message... and it will acutally work, I will love to serious death forever.

「13's CLUB」

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 20:26:56 GMT

I just saw mix speaker's inc 「13's CLUB」 ....
I just saw
saw

.. like i just saw
;o;

like i really saw
...

LIKE OMG I FUCKIN SAW/WATCHED LOOKED AT IT AND IT WAS WIN HORROR FANTASTIC RUSH HAPPY FUCKED FEELING ★★★★!!!!!!

DAMN you don't wanna know how BAD i want to see them live now OAO
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrr~~rawrw!

I WANNA HAVE IIIIITTT! I WANNA HAVE MONEY AND ORDER PURE WIN!WIN!WIN!

★!!!WIN!!!★

*sigh* TTATT yea sorry for this spamm ~~not really~~

WE'RE ROCK STARS BITCH

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 23:31:08 GMT

IT WAS DARN FAKKIN AMAZING!!!

But yet again I'm feeling like a total loser and there's no hope of getting some sleep whatsoeva
this year i'm gonna STOP THINKING AND START ACTING MTHRFKSB^$$@$*&)*^(%&#^$!@*_

my body is having some kind of stress reactions i cannot control
so yea~
for those who where there... sorry again for being such a stupid ass
but i really felt so sick and i was glad two of you forced me to take a rest ~it helped <3
god i hate it when people see me with that teary swollen up face, even tho the tears where already gone a bit)
it makes me feel desparately weak... and i feel like i have to act like i'm alright, while i'm actually not at all
so again XD SORRY AND THANK YOU!

I have the same thing right now btw... that weird stressing sick feeling
It's all coming together
misunderstandings, weird feelings, pitty
I want to ENJOY my life but everything here is holding me back
it's like i'm not living it fully
and i want to

school owns me or something
I hate it.... i try so hard not to complain
but here i am yet again, and I'm the blame for it, for all, it's my own poepsappige prob
...
so let's cut it out NOW!
NO THINK
this year i'll be a non-thinking josti people !! (XD lol... if i only could)

pictures are coming up 8D a lot a lot
or at least for some of you !
in the morning I will send you all a e-mail with the zip thing, iffya let me know you want to have it (so camille... XD yea I already know you want the babies so hohohoho hopefully you can wait till this morning)

I dunno if i want to post them here and stuff... I'll see
<3

death brings you closer to life

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 19:00:51 GMT

OK msn...

I FUCKIN HAAAAATE YOUUUUUUU!!!

IS THAT CLEAR???
...
good >.>

~ I have been trying to speak to people... typing a different hello every time (cuss I'm stupid XD) and it's getting on my NERVES man o man o man o man o woman YOU DON WANNA KNOOOOWWW
aaaaaAAAAAasnf;wejtwn g,mbvnxjzklhrteayth

SOMEONE GIMME A HAMMMEEEER ÒAÓ'
*does some yoga*

=o= ok yea... I'm cool, I'm ok

so i went to that funeral today, which robbed me from a wunderfull parteh in maastrich
but promise i'm gonna catch up with the partehing some other (weekend) day

It was smaaaaal ! Not that it's that strange, that woman had weird habbits concerning keeping thouch with her fams
I went specially for her husband, i find him such a wonderfull man ;o; <3 ghhad i was so sad
he kept moaning her name and cried so much
It fucking died
it was so sad

and he was so touched by the drawings i made
~it's just one of my funeral rituals, i guess I'm a bit into them rituals afterall

hurrrrr
But i'm glad i went, even tho it was as akward as could be
I feel so youngh between those people XD

it was a good cry ~ it's the only place in which i'm not hating the public crying

and just one random note ~ SATURRDAAAAYYYY BABIEEEESS <33333 WOOOOOOT XDD !!!

R.I.P

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 20:05:16 GMT

Tomorrow is my mothers aunt funeral
I've met her enough to say that I knew her
she was a funny woman, but she always picked a fight with my grandmother (her half, 10 years youngher sister)

If i went to them I always had fun, they has a big book of Grim fairytales which i LOVED, and they had a drawing room, so yeah...

it was al so sudden, I don't even realise it yet I think, I'm just so terribly sorry for her husband, who I call uncle Jaap XDD (even tho isn't my uncle really XD)
I like him so much ;o; I thought he was the first to die, his health is so bad...
and now this
I don't suppose he'll stay her for much longer too, he is so sad about it all

Jaap actually reminds me of my own grandfather (my fatherside grandfather) , he is so silent but yet so funny and inviting and present.. you know?
I love him.... it makes me so sad

so... I'll think i'll go to the funeral
I like funerals on that part, they give the best closure a person can get.. for me at least

anyway...
rest in peace Rie, at times like this I want to believe there's more to it than this
I hope i can finish that drawing for the two of them, one for here, one for overthere
<3

ICE.. NO WIND... SUNSHINE <3

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 20:47:07 GMT

I'll try to keep it short??
(...)

so ZAT my lovely people... is my new scarf.. or newest scarf (nice I seem to have a obsession nowadays?)

I dyed my hair pink again... and white again, and by accident, yellow again =____=
well you can't have everything
I tried to dye some patterns in it too... but the white dye ruined that cuss I didn't knew there was bleach or whatever in that stuff (i just knew it was only 1 euro)

For the white hair dyeee... i bought it in Ede wageningen; and that's where the big update really starts to begin .. uhuhuhuhuh

I HAD SUSHIIII <33333

There was a party at Rianne's house> the same as when i first met her actually XD sinterklaas parthee bebeee!!

Yea don ask

But this is at saturday so I first went to maddy to sleep over so i wouldn't have to pay money for trainssels... so we moved our butt to Rianne to play this game they really wanted to play and which we couldn't find last time
(...)
MY GOD
I WAS SUCH A LOSWER! >.> every time I started to get grip on it... rianne or maddy stole my windomm and DISTROYED me TTATT ~
so i killed them and this would be the end of the update
(as if)
After that night we went to pick up cami and juul and did some shopping (yes hairdye people) and juul and me also bought some random bright happy stuff to wave with at Tokyodance night ; since I really wanted to go, but had no money; juu gave TDN as a birthdaypresent ^o^ <3333 juul bought smily rings with lights and poo and stuff ^o^ I bought TO much... eeeeeeehrm .. *kuch* fluitjes (? XD) so decorate myself with colours (i didn't have and cool outfit ofcourse =____=)

After we did the worst we went to get out tummies filled aaaaaaat
a suhibaaar *shriek* X3 <33333 !!!

HAP HAP NOM NOM !

Juul and meh rule the sushi >XD CUS WE WILL EAT GDDMN!

AND CAMI TO!! ... maddy will stick to fresh meat only thank you XD <3

I also wanted to post my papparaaaazzzii bamboo photo's ... and the grudge/ring photo's XD muwuwhaaa
~but i spared you for dying that tragic death

So bla bla we went to rianne in lunteren to have the bigass party and than--- juul and I had to leave like ;o; right away
trough the rain ;o;
I mean juul XD cuss i gotta kind behind her tall back >XD MUHUUUHHA (oh sorry babe <3)

TDN was FUUUUUUUN XDDDD and... SHOCKING XDDDDDDDD
but i forgot my precious camera so I wasn't able to take any pics of that ... =____=
it was just a lot of fun
it made me forget all the wrong ways we took in that bloody rain ~and they had free lollies <3333
It ended kinda stupid.... sisen wanted to play this one song, and they got totally trown out by the club =_____=
well FUCKYOU! >o poor sisen ;o;
I saw him looking all 'wtf?' annoyed face
>.<
but better luck next time right?

Juul came to sleep at my space in shitwhole (I told you so... our supermarket is WAY bigger than yours >XD)
we slept around... 8 in the morning? ;o;
I died the next day
i mean it
my grandmothers 75 birthday =_____= what kind of stupid ass planning is that?
I fell appart around 11 o clock and I slept for like a WEEK! fucking hell!

untill it was my birthday party ^o^ with only maddy and cami <333 I'm actually glad it was only the 3 of us >XD I had a lot of hugo humor

BUT
I'm to lazy to carry on writing bladaaaabla

so just some camwhore pic i wanted to post ?
and I'll (might) update bout Hugo later on <333 HE'S MY DARLING!!!! I want to stick him in your EAR!

I bought a new shirt today... a nice warm one <3 I didn't have one :o !!
~oh XD and a hello kitty windmill stuff thingy <33 8D! cuss it was so cute and i really think I'll need it at Jrock invasion ^o^
AND a new lipring and a new piercing in my ear (the middle one between the lower row and the the one above)

p.s. YES at this moment I'm to lazy for a spellcheck XD sorry for being a typo with these nails... and for being a drama in spelling... just becuss I am no matter what language =________=

floep 8D !

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 12:29:54 GMT

this update doesn't count XD but HELL !! I just have to update........... SOMETHING
cuss I'm about to attent my own FUNERAL (It's now or NEVA hohooooahaoaoaahohoooo>XDD)

BAH XD EI WANT MOAR SLIEEEEP!!
I've got a new fear for eggs XDD
piemels will scare me no more !! IT'S EGGS!!!! AAAAA

~plz maddy and cami... could you plz get my photo's off my cam and send them to meh? (I want post better entry than this XDDD)
don't forget to bring it on friday... you're still coming right? let me know when and bladabla and stuff XD';o; I miss my bebehs (that includes the camera)

~ I want to thank juu-poo VERY MUCHLY!!! for giving me that awesome present <3333 + I really wanna know how you survived the day (since i didn't ... hohoho XD my grandma must have hated me! and cuss I failed in coming online :o I died in my bed the minute I came home) and we have to meet up soon at your place (with people) so I can get my watch back (grrrrr) and we can iceskate... or zumtzing like zhat 8] <3

~ DECEMBER!!! it isn't so bad afterall 8D I'm looking forward to my birthday (yay for rianne coming!) and to christmas party ... and to new years party 8D I weep tears of joy > tho I still want to fuck ibgroup in the butt with a broomstick

EDIT: YES I LIKE COMMENTS
dus als je dit leest en je bent er tog al... laat dan gewoon comment achter en dan ben je van dat gezeur ook weer af
liever hier dan msn...
want dat van dat gekut wil ik me computer door het raam gooien en laten we dat tog maar liever vermijden in verband met de snoeken in mijn vijfer die al het geld opeten
en psychologie is nog niet af en ik ben gestresst als een kip met vastzittende vaginale eieren
IK WIL POEPEN!

oe lala

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 20:05:22 GMT

Ok so december is gonna be a very bissy month... even more than it has been before
even tho TCST got cancelled (which totally ruind my mood for this day > so I'm gonna sleep soon in case it gets worst)

at first there is sintparty which I'm very muchly looking forward to (and before that with my sister> and I got no presents what so ever so I'm kindoff freakin out bout that too)

than there is my birthday > and people , yes you are all invited on the 14th but I''m am not going to worry about anything what so ever> and If you said you would come and in the end you can't make that promise... I'm sorry but I'll better have a good time anyway or you have to make up with me bad

when's it's time you will hear directions of how to get to meh... people can sleep over (if I lot feel up to that... we move to my granny's place by car... ahm... somehow XD :B ) drinks and food> plz bring it yourself a bit cuss we ain't rich at. all.!

than there's christmas ... about 4 possible partehs, new year (yea I can't be in to places at once and that sucks! ;o;)
and also J-rock invasion on which I'm still clueless where and how I'm gonna go ...
and it's all so close ;o;

but i know in the end it'll be worth it
If i don't fail my school

errg... school TT_TT

I'm sorry XDD I'm just overstressed bout that and i can't keep up with it ,nd it's starting to annoy me more every day
and I also start wondering whether this was the right choice
I so fucking fail XD

hmmm> plz germans buy your tickets next time
... SHOWER... BED !
XD NOW!

VANS BEBEH

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 17:03:53 GMT

I bought shoes
I did> I'm broken, dead and ... broken again, still a bit sick i guess
but i have them 8D + some xxlame sinterklaas presents
and srsz.. I HAVE NO MONEY

I'm going to die ;o; I swear...I can't buy tickets/hotelsrooms/presents
wat am i going to do man? my parents paid Jrockinvasion :o but now I have no clue of how to get there
It's stressfull
I'm about to cry and sue the IBgroup for not giving me the full
*sigh* and i wish for people to care about me some little bit more
...
........
BUT NOOOO! THIS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE AN EMO ENTRY XDDDDD

PICTURES~! and NO!
no cut for you!

GOD it looks like I have baby feet 8DDD (with cute socks included 8D! )

going to do this one too

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 13:32:02 GMT

OK... CUT FOR WISHLIST MEME THING
and for the ones who already made this> I really want to try do something for you <3 I just hope my stupid memorie won't let me down on this one

Step One:

- Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two:

- Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

My wishlist;

1 ☆ My uncle to stop smoking with his bad lungcondition

2 ☆ A selfmade drawing from friends <3 (to put on my wall 8D!)

3 ☆ cheesecake or glaced/decorated donuts

4 ☆ a new mobilephone (O man I wish i could get one from japan ;o;)

5 ☆ someone to care about me (and shows it) just as much as i care about them

6 ☆ to get AWAY from this bloody ASSVOMIT village

7 ☆ trip to japan with my friends ~there's no use in going alone

8 ☆ Sms / phonecalls / letters from friends > anything more personal than LJ/Myspace/Hyves/msn/ect

9 ☆ a FUN birthday party! (with funny little presents >XD) ~you are all invited on the 14 of december (watch for that entry!!)

10 ☆ICE! plz give me ice to skate on ;o; I wish to iceskate with a lot of fun people at the leidscheplein (it looks so hübsch over there ;o;)

My adress ...
Maartje
wiekstraat 45
1841 GJ Stompetoren

my mobilephone number ... (still the old number 8D)
0641770972

my housenumber ... ask meh XD If you find that I don't anwser mobilephonecalls a lot

and yea~I'm still sick
I should be in bed sleeping/reading
the kind off stuff you do when you're sick and no one is around to care bout yeh
(my sister avoids me as if i have MKZ or something )

I didn't go to school> so I'll have to give up my free mondaymornings to draw naked men with some other class
I hate myself pretty much right now XDDD
except for my hair which is slightly dyed pink again... tho with a very stupid kut pink which fades out way to fast
my 11th wish would be HAIRDYE > ROSE RED!!!
hehe XD

it's in the air>

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 06:00:57 GMT

I'm couching up my lungs...I'm so staying home today
I don't want to vomit in a full bus again =_____=

ergl, I hate this (cuss the cleaning lady is coming so no peace and quiet for meh)

but> when I was shopping (never felt bad during shopping D: but I had to anyway for school) I bought myself some very cute hairclips and yet another scarf and blabla

to my other sick sweethearts > hope you feel better soon <3333

I've been better

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 17:51:08 GMT

It is getting a bit to much sometimes
and I have this stupid fair nowadays and I don't know why... but somehow, I am scared to death that my uncle will die
it's stupid as hell and it won't go away
he's the youghest of my uncles/aunt (he one of the two uncles i have, so that's not that hard) but he has the worst condition ... I don't see him much, and still I like him the most

When I'm feeling weak this fear with all the others eets me alive and I can't stop crying
my hands are shaking and my head is aching

I think i might have a got a cold or something> I haven't felt this sick in ages

death has an irritating ringtone

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 13:04:29 GMT

Hahaha XD I want to thank Camille and Maatje for the wunderfull weekend , and wendy in the end to (does she have livejournal?)
But it gave me headache when I had to act at my workshop with that lil sleep XD hohohoooo
you imagen what would happen to me If I would take alcohol with it XDDDD
aaarh XD
but no> the workshop was fun too but my acting skills where not what they where supposed to be
Between the workshop (which was about ajax play also) and the actual play (yes AJAX!!!!) we had time to eat and stuff
but no time to go home
so I went doing random things with some classmates
I like them, I do.... and classes seem to get closer (but still.... some can be soooo BORING!)
and I saw Jackass the movie> I'm sorry if I offend people... but THAT is NO humor!!!!! some where funny, but most of the 'jokes' bored my eyes out or made me vomit
how old are they? 10? wtf?

and about Ajax ... I LOVED it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some thought is was hard and heavy, but yeah, you can expect that from an acient old play. I didn't notice anything ; but I'm more familair with acient greeks and the art of acting than most of them there so ofcourse I didn't XDD

and than we went for family dinner for sinterklaas... I didn't eat much after trowing up over a oyster XDDDD hoho it felt like eating boogers!!!! (it was to late to swallow compleet without having to take a run to the tiolet)
But it was fun anygays so 8D
yea
my weekend was fun > now on to doing my psychology and arthistory homework

p.s. no > that is not ment to be a emo title > that's the line for one missed call XDDD I LOVE THAT DUDE!!! MAKE MORE MOVIES PLZ!!! <333333

Edit: I forgot!!! I have my simcard again > so you can reach meh again with the same mobile number
BUT i lost all numbers again, so for those of you who want to make sure their number is in my system REPLY PLZ XDDD

why do people use photoshop?I SOOOOOO much like photoimpact better

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 23:05:45 GMT

~today~
I actually felt like behaving as mehself at school
which is saying something since I havent felt like that .... since the introdays???

ofcourse that asfbjlqawhfqiolwfr boy had to screw it up by annoying me just with being his stupid lame fake self

and BLABLA he is soooooo nice and Bla
but really.... I start disliking him more everyday
and just because i think he's trying to be something so hard that he fails in it 1000 times
YOU ARE NOT A GOOD ACTOR/SINGER/DANSER
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

I swear.... I have never had this in my WHOLE life, I didn't know I could dislike people this much without them doing something bad/wrong; in fact > he has no evil in him at all remember this day, as the day that I said NERD the first time + actually meaning it with all my heart

still... I was myself 8D and people asked me if I was on crack or someting XD hahahaha,
well if crack where his face, THAN NO!!!!!! >XDDDD

gawd!

but I'll just hold my head up crack ...

and look forward to seeing all my teddybears!

Cami I will sms you the timess neeee> incase our pumpkin lost them somehow ... hopefully I'll have my new simcard (if not > I'll put my name under it ;D)
and for magsel + Jusdorange > LET'S MEET SOOOOON!!!!
Ilse we make set a date to do some thing MAJOR fun ! I´m sorry the sms didn´t arive +o+ I did try to contact you but the number was wrong? a well; I'll make up to you

and now I will say sorry to you all for writing such a LAME FAIL LOSER entry >XD I'm sure you will forgive me (I promise to make a better one next time)

Oh> and plz meet my new scarf Sammie he is lovely and he cuddles a lot! He is echt hema! but I love him still!

BLA

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 12:27:32 GMT

buwablabla
I had fuuuuuuuneven tho I lost my cellphone again
-just glad I didn't loose my cam > that would break my heart even more

I'm actually more sad about loosing Mister X and my gloomybear phoneprotekturh
I MISS MISTER X!!!!! ;O;

but thanks to miss slagroomtaart (i eat you juu!) i got to my destination anygays..

but at first I went to germany, but i already told laura when i would be arriving so that was no prob without mob (+ I didn't know i lost it at that time)
we ran to the bus which took us to germany ... and I was like WHERE THE FUK AM I GOING! XD looool I knew she was german
but I thought her new appartment was actually in nijmegen (since her spaz still tells that and cuss she studiez there)

hahhah so i got to visit german supermarkets > it was almost like a holiday >XD it was a shame of the HPmovie she really wanted to watch eventho I said it was A UGLY MOVIE!!!
AAAAAA I WANTED TO FALL ASLEEP!! but i couldn't since she would put poncorn in my ears if I would ;o; nasty bietch
soooooo than I went back again to go the place i had to go without my cell and I was trippin very much on crack> and thats where soesje came in and I finally stopped spazzing when I saw poepsap waiting for me (YAY MATTJE!)

hawr hawr 8D sticked to some butts at the AH, I tripped over nicky (DOGGY I LOVE YOU!) talked to some folks and saw some LOVELY (zwerver) pictures and than we went to rianne to trip over some more dogs, talk to some more folks (wut was that fight about >XDDDD ????) and I saw some more sweet zwerverzs

and than the next day was just hilarious> specially when we all when to bed with rianne telling pimp stories and weird shadows crawling to our door (man that freaked me out OAO !!) + matrassen delen is win! (I actually slept nice and waaarm!!)

PRON PICS

Her cat wanted a toy form the drawer above> so he torn up the lowest one XDD after smashing the socks out

laura ficksing the drawer >XD

MADDY AND BOBOOO <3333
@ riannes 8D her puppie (kuch) is just to CUTE ... even tho it's a puppy who can bos you down and eat your shoes and scarfs

and he eats blankets too 8D

Esssie <3

pimp, poepsap and piemel

Maai, Maddy en Mianne

plz

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 16:53:46 GMT

why does she have to misunderstand me?
I always thought my mum would get this feeling

but no
i guess I have thought wrong

seeing my friends this little is NOT ENOUGH
and I DON"T have to pay for retout tickets cuss I have FREAKIN OV... I don't have money issues
I shouldn't complain? WTF? LIKE YOU HAVE IT SO BAD!?

stop treating my like a child who can't handle anything, I know It's not much, but some i can, I can think for myself
I'm fucked up tired of this

I feel so alone ... at moments like these I can't stop crying. I want to go to her and cry everything out, but I can't since she will only yell at me and say things that will hurt me even more
I just want to be hold and say nothing
I don't want to protect myself

I really want to get out of here and be with persons I like every day, and not the people from school, they're nothing like me
I just can't handle being this alone... she should see that. not me not being able to handle my school and money
those are things I actually Can handle and I'm going to loose that if people keep talking this into me

I could really use some words of comfort
plz

ode aan plastic tree=B <3 ^ . ^

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 00:39:47 GMT

I didn't write that
NO I DID NOT

I am WAY to happy for that
I AAAAAAAMMM

gimme plastic bukkake MORE! MORE! MORE!

more is a very strange word

.. u-hum
so yea~ I lost my socks... it rocked so hard they burned them right off my feet
but that's ok, they probably smelled anygays

sorry> no pictures >XD I'm going to just pin my poster to the ceiling and pet my wristband some more
jesuzmohammedalibmozesabrahamchristfuckingGOD ... I hell sure needed this <333 XD

and babies I was very happy you could both make it in the end <3 ~! *pets hair*

WUT TO DO ?

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 18:51:16 GMT

ok... so , tell meh, what do you guys think ? plateau would make diru easier to see... it's make me about 1.80 tall. the others (skateshoes.. yes and they look way better than the pictures actually) are better dance/run/confy shoes :o
my plateau I have never used before.... (i guess I don't think visual suits me) and I think i will sell them... >.>
lol XD saying this already told me what i should do, my skate-shoes> I will be sure to feel good in them :o

but i still want your opinion ;o; <3 plz ???
(................................)

GAH!!! I JUST CAN'T WAITTTTT!!!! 8DDDD

lets get workin again

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:24:12 GMT

whooeeeee

I had much fun this weekend, even tho my sister was bein a bitch >XD

I woke up at 13.30 sunday (which I have nevar done before D: ) and I had to travel 2 and a half hours to get back home
zo while feeling like it was morning, it was actually evening
eh
weird

so:
PICTURES OF PARTEH
maddy wanted her maatje to give them to her
and soooo here they are bebeeee 8D

pedoman.. tho people may claim he is something else

I was sad about sharon not makin it :o she would have made one awesome non XDDD LOL
and juu better get her but over thar next time too

but after all this traveling
It seemed that my sister went to a concert (thank god... I really didn't want to see her stupid face), and my parents to texel , thus I came home alone (with my doggy and cat jumping on me like lunatics XD)
Lol XD
My mum and dad went for a good weekend alone or someting... a gift from work?
But I always find my mum complaining like a mad woman about how much things hurt ... get a painkiller? well whatever, I just think my dad should be the one complaining with that big belly of his
... erm
but that also depends
but I really DON'T want to think about that... if you know what i mean =______=

yeu yeu

So now I will get ready for skeullesseun (ergh) for the first time in 3 weeks ;o;
hope my new subjects are kewl
cuss I'm afraid i might skip to see people (this is to MUCH for my brain yo)

and
.....
diru within a week... WHAT NO!! WITHIN TWO DAYS!
!!
mcPie I will ask about staying over todaaaaay ... and if we can (I assume we can) than I'll go straight from school
so you can come anytime you want, I can pick yeh up from station or subway and we can go crossin togathzer

but we'll talk about that later too

<33 love to you my puppies <3333 ^o^

yea people

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 16:08:17 GMT

some of you I call my friends
you know that right?

that maybe you guys can understand that I'm a bit annoyed by the fact that i didn't get ANY reply on my last entry about venice from you

did you not see it... or are you just not interessed to know how it was?

I'm a bit stressed, so sorry if I sound a bit as a loner
tha fact is, right this moment i actually feel like one

my test totally failed
failed failed... Failed with capital F
i could even spell the whole thing in capitals

FAILED

but whatever

let's go on with part two of venice pictures

Now ... I have to go write an essay about 300 pages of arthistory in one day

hope you all still love meh
<333

VENICE

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 23:26:35 GMT

somehow livejournal and myspace stopped sending me notifications
I... stressed out from homework and venice... almost into tears because my inboxs was soooo freakin empty
turns out is shouldn't be empty at al

I OFFICIALLY HAVE TO TAKE RESCUE SPRAY XDDDDD

LOL XD
hahahaha XD I swear i have never felt like that before
felt that
... because now ( THANK SOMEONE) it ish GONE!

not that I shouldn't worry anymore
the shizzle is still not done

but i'm not the only one
and I can redo exams AND assignments

so... TUCK FHEM ALL!
^-^ right?

but now... the real reason for posting this
I have made a small *hoest* selection from my venice photo's

and I shall tell you little stories with it... because without it some don't mean Shit

pudumtidum
this kutje contains ...16 pictures?
and it's not even al of it :o

We had out hotel somewhere else (in case you didn't know... VENICE IS TO MUCH MONEY!)
this is the place we left with the boat to go tha venice 8D it was so relaxxxxx!

few from the venice to the islands

Boats everywhere 8D ~ and if you look closer... it's raining =_= guess who didn't bring her umbrella-ella-ella-e-e-e

PIZZA

a kewl dude with a nice spotlight?

THIS was everywhere!... it was soooo preeeetty! the feeling I got that night... it's something I'll never forget ^-----^

laterns in venice... this is about as kitsch as they can get

we had.... THE BEACH! a minute away from our hotel... I did take a dive... in the morning (but no pictures of that ... yet)

how dorky can one be?? LOL XD
worst than in this pic (trust meh... I looked VERY dorky!)

my dear roommates <3 My niece on the very left, than rosannn than channttt

*sigh*

I adored this painting, everthough the subject was pretty cliche... hmm.
There where many others that i liked , and way better than this one. But I made movies of them... not pictures, that was in some way impossible. I liked the korean expo the best <3 it ruled so MUCH!
This, by the way, was in a part of a modernart garden... there where two parts. Artist all over the world gather here to show their work in their own folley... it's pretty big
but in the end there was so much to see that my head felt like exploding

and look wut i found in the store of this modern art expo .... SISEN XD lol, ayumi was innit to XD I laughed my kontje off (it was in the gothic lolita book... I would never looked in it if someone didn't tell me about the books and if i wasn't very bored XDD)

this was one piece of art by russia... big piece... big big me LOVED it (it's spinning coloured light 8D!)

and to finish this part...
this is probably the most important -b-e-a-utifull villa dating back from the renaissance
we also got inside... but it's not worth to post it here, since there's to many things to show

thank you in case you actually took the time to read this true

and i hope you are all ok
I hope the gazette was cool (i heared funny rumors by the way... what's with that?)
I hope you are al laid back learning for school ( if that is the case) with me it is anyway

WISH ME LUCK!!!! <333

bored

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 13:37:56 GMT

I don't know what to do

I'm feeling hurt and I feel like I'm hurting

I feel unpacked

1) using band names, spell out your name.

M- Mix speaker's Inc
A- aile
A- ayabie
R- R.A.P
T- teddy
J- J∀CK11
E- eimy

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? neu

3) what song makes you cry? Hanson- believe

4) what songs makes you happy? otsuka ai- sakuranbo + perfume -oishii recipe

a p p e a r a n c e

x. HEIGHT: 1.76 (?)
x. HAIR COLOR: blond/white/fading green
x. SKIN COLOR: white
x. EYE COLOR: grey/bleau
x. PIERCINGS: 13 ear (used to be 16) 1 lip

x.TATTOOS: 1 (but I don't think it really counts)

r i g h t n o w

x. WHAT YOU WEARING?: baggy pants, purpe tup, green wide apple top, scarf

x. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: R*A*P - Shakunetsu no A to Z

x. WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: .... energydrink

x. WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: depressing

x. HOW ARE YOU?: not so good

x. GET MOTION SICKNESS?: ? me? *laughs*

x. HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yes> a lot of them

x. GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: very good

x. LIKE TO DRIVE?: when people drive for me

x. CHILDREN?: right now? wtf NO

x. BEEN HURT?: badly even

r a n d o m

x. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: no

x. YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW?: my cd player is broken> but I guess My chemical romance

x. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: friends, family, music and movies

x. WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: .... the feeling or Muse

seven things in your room:
1. posters
2. a computer
3. windmill (hold by aoi)
4. mirror
5. my pillow
6. a suitcase
7. my tarantula

seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. smile
2. hair
3. length
4. voice
5. neck
6. slender/ slighty muscular
7. piercings

do you smoke?: No

read the newspaper?: in the train

pray?: neuh

do drugs?: na a

have you ever:
been in love?: yes

gone skinny dipping?: not yet

had a medical emergency?: when I was little.

had surgery?: nope

swam in the dark?: Yes.

been to a bonfire: erhm... no

gotten drunk:nope

run away from home?: ... not really

played strip poker?: no

beaten someone up?: no

gotten beaten up?: not really

slept outdoors?: yes

pulled an all nighter?: yes

if yes, what is your record?: just one day

been on radio/tv?: not really

been in a mosh-pit?: no... close to it tho

been to a party: Yes.

gotten lost in the woods?: neu

do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: jep

about you:

wallet: full for venice

coffee: ew

cologne/perfume: ... al sorts of (testers)

in the last 48 hours have you....

cried: yes

bought something: I'm going to

gotten sick: of myself

sang: yes

been kissed: no (by my mum maybe?)

felt stupid: yes

talked to an ex: no

talked to someone you have a crush on: no

hugged someone: Yes.

argued with a parent(s): no

attend church: NO

last:

thing you ate: bread

thing you drank: energydrink

place you went: the busstop

person you kissed: my semi best friend elles (just fuck her!)

person you talked to: my grandmother

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 11:23:36 GMT

wooooo

why the sudden popularity of surveys?
MY FLIST IS FILLED @A@

anygays
I feel awfull
I don't feel like it, but i do (?wtf? XD)
I mean, I'm still jodeling around and doing my daily random fun stuff (like doing weird make-up and camwhore under the cut 8D)

and THAT is the thing
that makes me feel HELL awfull right now
but i can't ...
get myself together and do someting about it OAO

meeeeeeeeh ;;O;;

so here is... more of that
+ pictures

I just constantly feel under pressure and full of hate> specially towards myself
I don't like hating myself so much XD you can imagen
and with that, getting things DONE, just won't happen

BABEEEES PLEEEEEEEEZ TELL ME TO GET A GRIP AND START WORKING!! ;O;
tell me i can do this ;o;
TELL ME I WILL DO THIS

do I really have to stress like this?
I feel like I have to... cuss everbody else is doing so

I just can't keep up
so I went on doing crappy make-up.. hoping somebody would speak/talk to me, cuss I wouldn't let myself start talking to anybody
this is how messed up I am right know XDDD ~not as.. depressed messed up or something
just lost and confused D:

I don't know if i already posted some of these...
I know it's not that special
but at least you guys now know what I do when I'm bored (or lost in my own mess XD)

and NO...this is NOT supposed to be ganguro

it's not completely neatly worked this one ... sorry =_____=

Oh my> this one is VERY old XDD!!

I'm just lost
I HATE exams!!!
AND I LOVE YOU .. and I miss you all SO MUCH YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGEN HOW FREAKIN MUCHO ;O;

so yea
I just wish this week to be over ^o^
and exams too

cus i have to go meet up with a LOT of poepjes! <3333

because ;O;!!!

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 20:07:43 GMT

ok... so here's the deal

I don't wanna travel alone to abunai cuss I don't know shit
and I have one ticket left to travel firstclass for second prize (and I'll bet that goes for OV too...)

i'll repeat

i r e a l l y DON't want to travel alone ;o;
i feel like a baby man XD but it's just.... how it is XDDD hehehehe

if anyone is willing to drag me along.... or meet at the station or wha evar
PLZ GIMME SHOUTS!

so....
today was boring
but I'll have soesjes so it's gonna be fine

I want to say something but I dunno what to say so I'll just post random camwhore again (I fail... I know =___=)

good night <3